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  • mixed up

    I'm feeling mixed about two things right now: Jesus and my ex-spouse. And I feel incredibly sad about both of them. I feel like it means something if I want to have a relationship with Jesus. Like I'm a sell-out or I'm…

  • grrr, argh

    I've only been back to work 4 hours and I feel . . . pathetic. I spent the first hour of reading and deleting email, carefully avoiding anything that looked vaguely involved. Then I logged into my personal email, discove…

  • rings

    I'm feeling conflicted wearing my wedding rings. I keep thinking, "You're weird. Don't you know your marriage is over? What do you think, that wearing them is going to bring him back?" Then I keep wondering what other pe…

  • wedding rings

    I'm wearing my rings ~ my diamond engagement ring and my wedding band. I went with my mom today to get them out of our safe deposit box at the bank. I'm missing my husband like crazy. Seems like the holidays are stirri…

  • where-I-am-now tarot reading

    This is from two nights ago. This is a little weird to post *after* last night's post, but I still want to record it. Universal Waite deck. situation ~ 5 of cups ~ sorrow over 3 spilled cups while ignoring 2 full cups…

  • Dang, I miss 'em

    Those dogs, they kept me in line. No mooning around about boys. No feeling lonely, especially not in bed. No thinking about sex and men as a way to fill the emptiness. I'm fighting all these thoughts about how I failed t…

  • I feel lost.

    There's something about being sick that often leaves me feeling this way. Inevitably, when I really start feeling better physically, I feel better psychologically, too. I get more grounded and I don't feel like I'm just …

  • Ready for a change

    You never change things by fighting the existing reality. To change something, build a new model that makes the existing model obsolete. --R. Buckminster Fuller, Critical PathLee is dating someone. Makes me happy and…

  • Making decisions as an adult

    I'm finding a crux in making difficult decisions as an adult: holding the ambivalence of, on the one hand, knowing I made the best choice I could, while on the other hand, still wishing things could have been different a…

  • Satisfied.

    I got everything done for FY08 budget. Rawk!I feel satisfied with this accomplishment. Accomplishment feels good. Feeling satisfied feels good. I like feeling good. ***This is going to be a busy week. I have something sc…

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